3 AM

So its 3am and ii can't sleep. I'm supposed to go jogging with tene in the morning and do my hair and go with christine to get her peircing in the am ... God give me the strength cause ii can't do it on my own not on 3 hours of sleep atleast.

But back to my not being able to sleepness. I have conditioned myself to talk to this special person in my life every night b4 ii go 2 bed and tonight ii didn't even get a text from him :'(.
Just because ii can't sleep ill tell yall about him. Well I've know him for almost 4 years and we kind of have this up and upper type of relationship. There is something so undeniably special about him its crazy. My freinds all have their own opinions formed about him but for once ii really don't care what anyone has to say about him because they don't know him the way ii do.
He is one of the most amazing people I've ever met in my life. At the same time that I'm talking him up I have to admitt his not so goods. He does have a tad bit of a record for being a ladies man and ... That's pretty much it. Honestly ii find myself over analising things ii used to c on his page and things people tell me about him and honest to God I've spent nights bawling over him ( though I'd never tell him) but something just draws me back , like ii can't leave him alone. Our chemistry is sooo crazy real its bananas. Now neither one of us claims eachother technically but he's the only guy ii talk to / am involved with because honestly ii don't c or think about anyone else and it would just b a waste of time to talk to anyone else because I'd never be there my minds is just always on him. He knows how ii feel about him and ii know how he feels about me and that's all ii need. I'm not looking for anyones approval or thoughts on the situation. Am ii 100% happy with where me and him are at ? No. But ii can tell you I'm pretty dam close. This man is the only guy who ii can truley say that ii love and ii know that he will ALWAYS be a part of my life no matter what even if its not in a romantic way because well ... He's just that dam special. Welp ii think ii can go to sleep now with a smile on my face :). Yo dead ass... He knows ii don't even have to say it... Its euphoric ii wish this feelin would never end.


...And that's the way the cookie crumbles .:):).

Ps sorry for the typos ... It is 3 am n today was sooo the best day of my life bc willie of day26 tweeted me yes HE tweeted ME aaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (ok I'm done ) :D.